i told brian the other night that i do my best to not blog about the same thing twice. however, tonight i do find myself once again contemplating the ineffectiveness of the internet. ineffectiveness? limitations? yes. limitations. some things just can't be expressed by the typed word. and it doesn't matter if you put asterisks or parentheses around the word ... you just can't hug a friend online. no matter how much you'd like to.
i would estimate i spent at least 2 hours today doing nothing more than sitting and daydreaming. mostly daydreaming, at least. there was a little analyzing going on there, too. but not in the overcritical way i usually analyze. (people often make the mistake of thinking i turn a blind eye to the possible ramifications for my actions. in truth, i spend a lot of time concocting in my mind the worst possible consequences for the things that i do. once i know i can make peace with the possible outcomes, it's easy to make the next step. but i digress.) it started as i was waiting for a phone call from a friend. i was idly clicking around on facebook, and then just started to let my mind wander instead. and you know how a mind can wander. i have no idea where i started, but i ended up dreaming about a little bit of every thing. after the phone call and running a quick errand, i came home with no real plans for the evening and seven or eight new thoughts running through my mind. it was gorgeous outside, so i took a glass of wine onto the deck and settled into one of the patio chairs. another hour or so passed by, and it wasn't until i came inside to make dinner that i realized this song had been running through my mind.
there are, of course, lots of youtube options for this song. this one's got good audio, a little bit of background about the song and a decent angle to see that JoCo looks like a muppet when he sings. :)
it's all in the last eight lines.
So enjoy yourself, do the things that matter Cause there isn't time and space to do it all Love the things you try, drink a cocktail, wear a tie Show a little grace if you should fall
Don't live another day unless you make it count There's someone else that you're supposed to be Something deep inside of you that still wants out And shame on you if you don't set it free
in retrospect, i practically led my coworker to my blog tonight. she's a friend of a friend on facebook, and as she & i shared space in the break room tonight she asked me about a facebook conversation she'd seen. i told her we were talking about the song Disco Dancing Dragon because brian had used it in a video and i hadn't been able to find any information on it, even though it's been indelibly stuck in my head ever since. she was sitting there with her phone in front of her - of course she googled it. now, i KNOW that if you google Disco Dancing Dragon, my blog pops up first on the list. but that thought didn't cross my mind. she quickly pointed out what album the song was from and who the artist is. i confirmed that that's what brian had told me and that i had downloaded the song last night. then she says " ... wait. are these ... ? i think these are brian's pictures. yeah, these are brian's pictures! that's the dragon you gave him!" and she's laughing and turns her phone so i can agree that, indeed, those are brian's pictures.
and that's when the light bulb went on. this is what she was looking at.
i don't know if she realized she was looking at something i had posted or not. if she read the actual text, she had to have known. i mean, the first line states "i gave the miniature dragon to brian" - that's pretty obvious. but if she noticed, she didn't let on.
torn between feeling awkward and being humored, i'm choosing to be humored. even if she realized it and comes back to read more - so what? it's a public blog. i've always had it that way, and i don't see any reason to make it invite-only or anything like that. that's why i keep stories vague and don't use a lot of names. that's why i don't post every thing that goes on, especially the stuff inside my head. ;)
i did come home tonight, though, and start reading through my posts. my original thought was to edit out anything that shouldn't be read by new readers. but, again, so what? i don't really blog about anything that's going to embarrass me. and i don't use it to unabashedly vent about work or coworkers. and if people want something to judge me for, they're going to find something to judge me for - they don't really need my blog to do that. plus, if learning that i'm slightly OCD about keeping my silverware off of restaurant tables is something that interests them - then read away, good people. read away. chances are you're going to find out i'm crazy eventually anyway. :)
- sleep without an alarm clock - make serious progress on the crochet project (in fact, i think i'm done until my yarn order comes in) - watch one movie i haven't seen before
BUT, i've also managed to:
- wash dishes - run the dishwasher - get chili simmering in the crock pot - sit around with a dopey grin on my face because my friends are awesome
i'm off work tomorrow. my roommate's away for the weekend, so i've got the house to myself. what to do?
- finish the back of the t-shirt quilt - sew together the middle of the t-shirt quilt - decide next step of the t-shirt quilt :) - make serious progress on the crochet project - run the oven through a cleaning cycle - bake cookies to ice with the leftover icing in the fridge - sleep without an alarm clock - watch two movies i haven't seen before - contemplate why the plural of "hiatus" is not "hiati"
i was having a conversation with Person A tonight, when Person B entered the room. Person B asked a question about the conversation, which i answered. my answer apparently surprised her, as she immediately exchanged one of those wide-eyed "did she just say what i think she said?" looks with Person A who returned her own "yes, she did. what do you think about that?" look.
okay, i know the looks were silent - but they weren't invisible, ladies.
- working with fabric, which makes the time go quickly - amazing friends, both old and new - parents more supportive and loving than i could ever describe - sunshine for the drive home - planning a trip to LA - embracing possibilities
have you seen the tv show Lie to Me? the main character is an expert at reading facial expressions (micro expressions, even) and judging if the person is being honest. it's an enjoyable show. the main character is british, so he has a lovely accent and a tendency to call people "love" during normal conversation. it's cute. and it's something he can get away with, in part, because he's got a british accent, which is also cute.
my point? i got a message from a friend last night that started with, "actually, love, you are proof of that" - and it made me grin. he doesn't have a british accent, but i can forgive him that. ;)
- eyeball salt and pepper shakers - doodling through team huddles after the store is closed - passing notes like kids in middle school - open windows and cool breezes - photo days with april - dinner with good friends - dinner with family - copernicus the homicidal monkey - sewing at 5am
